7 days

SEVEN DAYS!!!! We will finally get to meet our little baby in seven days!

We are excited, we are nervous, we are trying to get the rest of the house ready, we are trying to tie things up at work so that we can relax and only think of our new family while we are having maternity/paternity leave.

Today at my last doctor's appointment while still pregnant I was stating to my doctor that I wish we had not scheduled my C-section for the end of the week. I am tired, I am large, my hips have been hurting for this entire pregnancy, I am big, I am tired of waddling my way to the bathroom and I am big! My doctor informed me that if I wanted to move my surgery up earlier in the week that we would just have to call the hospital and see what was available.

As a typical patient who just complained for 2-3 minutes straight, when given a solution I should have been thrilled. Instead I panicked.

Am I really ready to be a mother of two? Am I really ready to go through surgery again? Am I ready for all the recovery that a C-section requires? Is Liam ready to give up his only child status? Am I ready to take care of a newborn again? Ready to breastfeed again? Ready to be woken up numerous times in a night again?

As you can see, there were several questions that flashed before my eyes in a most panicked state. I told her I would discuss it with my husband and get back to her.

You might be thinking it's a little too late. These questions are really good questions to ask yourself before you get pregnant, not a week before your baby comes! I wholeheartedly agree.

Of course, I am ready to be a mother to another child. I think I need to remember that we did this before. We actually did it pretty well. (considering that he's still alive and healthy) We will be able to dive right in and do it all again. We will probably do it even better the second time around, only because we have (hopefully) learned from our mistakes.

So, we may decide to keep our Friday appointment for now but not because we are scared of what this new chapter in our lives will bring. Not because we are nervous about taking care of a newborn again or dealing with the stress of breastfeeding.

Possibly though we are still enjoying our mostly uninterrupted sleep. (despite the 3-4 potty breaks a night that require me to roll out of bed)