One day to go

I have less than one day before we get to meet this new baby. I am feeling all of the feelings. I am excited, I am anxious, I am sad and I am terrified.

I am excited to finally get to meet this new child. Will it be a boy or a girl? Liam and I really think a boy and Caroline and Evan really think it's a girl.  I am excited to no longer be pregnant as I am exhausted, sore and tired of being as large as an elephant.

I am anxious because, hello!, I am having surgery. I am anxious because we will have a new routine and schedule that we will not be able to be determine until this baby gets on a schedule which could be months.

I am sad that I just had to say goodbye to my other two children. I was in tears and holding them back until Liam squeezed me even tighter and wouldn't let me go when it was time for him to leave with Grandpa and Grammie Walles. Caroline was not phased but just very excited to leave with her grandparents and have a sleepover with them.

I am terrified of the unknown. Isn't that always the case? I pray that this child will be healthy and that the delivery will go just as smoothly as it did with Caroline. I pray that my recovery will go just as smoothly as it did with Caroline. I am terrified of what I will be like as a mother of three. Almost everyone I talk to says going from 2 to 3 kids was very difficult. I already have very little patience for my two children and now we're adding a third. Oh boy.

Here's the great thing. We have so much family who are near to us that will help us at a moments notice. We have some pretty great friends and coworkers as well who have offered to bring us a meal if we need one. I know ultimately that we will be fine.

I have been in the nesting phase for almost a month now. Poor Evan has been working hard at crossing thing off my list. The house is ready, food is in the freezer, fans have been dusted and windows washed. Because yes that is very important when you are bringing home a new baby.

There's only one thing left to do....rise and shine Monday morning, this baby is breaking out!